So… Ryan was here to hang with Jay for the weekend. Jay pretty much ignored him. Blah. Not my concern. But Ryan did search through Jay’s AIM logs and found IMs from me & him… then he cut and pasted them into a note on his computer. I was being nice to Ryan because Jay was being crappy to him, so I felt that he at least needed someone in this house to make him feel welcome since he was, after all, a guest. Some of the IMs were harsh… so I feel kinda bad, since I talked to the kid and I think he’s a decent kid. But I did say I don’t trust him, and I still don’t think I do. Maybe if I was going to know him for awhile longer, then I might begin to trust him, but I don’t give blanket trust to everyone I meet, in fact it’s quite the opposite lately. I’m just glad the whole Ryan-Jay drama thing is done with and we can get back to our own private little drama here at home. I feel bad for Ryan that he came out here from Toledo to be with Jay because he really liked Jay, and I’m a little dissapointed in Jay that he couldn’t just flat-out tell Ryan not to come and that he wasn’t interested. Jay was trying to get me to tell him–that is not a service we provide.
Of course, I still like Jay, and I hope he’s learned a valuable lesson: just fucking tell people how you feel about them. I hate getting dicked around by guys (one of them was even named Guy) and just think it’d make life easier if we told truth instead of euphemism.
On another note, I went up to GR to Diversions tonight when I should’ve stayed down here and went out with Bob, who was over from Ann Arbor. While that makes me a heel (and I acknowledge that, embraced it, in fact, by being a complete and total selfish asshole and going to Diversions instead) I will have to make it up to Bob and see him the next time I’m in A2. He was with other friends, so it’s not like he came here just to see me and I ditched him; he called and asked if I wanted to hang with him and his girl-friends, which I really didn’t want to do…
What I realy wanted to do was see Kelly tonight because I hadn’t seen him for awhile, and I was hoping to see Kurt there but he didn’t show. That short lil fucker still owes me a movie! But I did get to see Kelly. I gave him a little good-bye kiss on the cheek because he’s a sweetheart. Two cool things happened tonight:
1.)This totally drunk lady came up to us at the bar and was all “it’s my birthday woooo!” and Kelly and I just looked at her like… yeah… have another… but her name was Kelly, too, so she though that was extradamnedspecial.
2.)I was heading home and I stopped at a red light on Monroe, I look to my left and so none other than Adam Bird walking through the intersection towards my car. It was a “holy shit” moment for both of us; Adam’s one of the old crew from way way back in the day, 1999-ish era. Craziness. I’ll have to look that cat up next weekend if I go to GR.
I think I’m going to try and sleep at Barb Deibert’s house for a few nights this week. Me, a book, notepad, and a walkman. I want some time away from the kids. Josh and I went at it again tonight. He says I don’t respect him and… I guess from his point of view I don’t, but I really do, if that makes any damned sense. I’m just an ass. I thought everyone knew that. I will hassle you to no end, but only if I like you.
This is true because Ewan McGregor is my love interest. (Thanks, Jordan!)
Hmm. God… what else… It’s nearly 6am and I’m still up screwing around… nothing else, I guess, except that Internet Explorer is broken on my computer, and I’m not sure why, but of course you can’t really “fix” it without either re-installing Windows or delving into the registry, the first option I think is ridiculously stupid to have to do and the latter is astoundingly time consuming and equally as ridiculous. I was using IE for gay.com chat because Microsoft’s Java VM rendered the chat stuff better (probably because whoever wrote the software wrote it for Microshit’s VM) but since that was the only thing I use IE for anymore I can deal with it until I figure out a way to fix it… but it won’t even run WindowsUpdate, so I have no idea what’s wrong with it. Or how I caused it. Yahoo Messenger is screwed up, too, but I’m not sure if the problems are related or not. Firebird is still working wonderfully, of course 
I took this picture of the other roommate Joe the other night.
I spent four hours in Borders today just looking for something to read next. I read 
Dino: hello, little pariliament box
